Dream girl

Colleagues in the production, go to the  nike dunks hospital to see her. Birth to a little girl, only five pounds, about to cry when I go tired, nap in the thick of the infant sleep in to, only shows the little face big fist, delicate skin, delicate features, I looked and looked , envy. 
Always loved children, even in my own or a child, I liked those younger than children, children playing in and the yard, “over every family,” the game is always rushing when the mother haspresentable shape to hold the doll coax her to sleep, to see the yard toddler baby always presumptuous to rushing Qubao them, because no sound in a small weak also have to hold a few smaller than I year-old Kepo his head, so that parents give to the people their parents to apologize. But seeing classmates, colleagues, one by one to do the mother, the children in my life did not always come. 
Child parents work hard, meager wages supporting the burden of a family of five. There will be a very young mother of two children, life stress, then also do not pay attention to what and communicate with their children, care for the child’s mind, every household the way parents educate their children not to play is the curse, there is little reason and communicate , the child’s spiritual growth are all his own groping in the dark. My parents should be more open-minded or, in particular, I am a girl, my little hands. Only brother and I were near the age suffer, bad temper, never know humility, always bully me, hit, raising his hand, mouth reproved, seeing him stare My heart is quivering. Each had been wronged and parents to complain, dad distressed me, go hit my brother, I do not have the heart, wept still more, eccentric mother, never willing to say brother, I fuss against angry, hurt the brother beaten. And I was extremely sensitive, vulnerable, and often cry to the middle of the night, even taking their hearts are. Now want to come very funny, could be time sensitive for a mind, a sickly girl, the really great sorrow, no place to tell. I thought I was a mother waiting for me in the future, I will take care of my daughter, attentive care of her tender heart, let her be a little bit hurt. 
I have always dreamed of coming to her with all my passion and love. 
I like the eyes of a child pure and innocent, innocent and lovely smile, milk and milk sound of the voices of air, soft, warm little body, like petite does not help, need to care of her mother’s care to stimulate the deepest women’s maternity. Strong and sturdy again in childhood is but a helpless child in need of adult care, anytime and anywhere to find her mother, eyes closed in the crowd can identify the smell of her mother and then all rushed in to do not simply leave regardless. In any other’s arms he is disturbed, careful, always identified in the search, the patron saint to give his life, because only in her side, he can put down the guard, put aside fear, assured playing, deliberately spoiled , self-willed, noisy; and when the night falls, he is just recognize their mother’s smell, only cling to her arms, only where he can breathe the taste of the safest, most familiar touch to the heart, as if back to life the most primitive fetal state, curled up in his mother’s warm arms of sleep safely. The desire of the mother child attachment and trust wholeheartedly is the mother of the biggest meet it, when he was babbling, toddler, fall climbs up again and again, saw her mother on the grin; When you no matter how rebuke, he at least with tears, his voice hoarse, remains a time toward your arms; when he was pain, fear, fear, instinct to find call, “Mom, Mom,” the child ah, you are the meat of the mother heart, lungs, life’s most intimate Posts love, who can understand, even the heart of this mother and child care and dismay. Piece is cooking eel arched body of the pregnant, it would only be a fatal food is placing his might, we should also give starving dog bitch, that raised the pistol suicide should send their daughters young cornea mother, the earth is the mother ah, whether people are animals, are just the same than the love of children love their mother! 
What children? That God give you the biggest surprise, the best miracles, she is your blood in the blood, flesh of his flesh, is the continuation of your life, dreams of passing. She and her small body, the flow of blood passing on to you, she is stripped from your body out of the independent individual, who belongs to you, but after all belong to her. She has her own thoughts, their feelings, their own world, but these, without exception, you imprint mark, because, just because she comes from you, take all your hard work, love and hope! To see her grow under your wings, slim, seemed to see again in their own living again. When the passage of time, you will feel at ease growing old, when death come, you can sleep at ease, because you have children, she could prove that wider world, you have, and she took your brand, your soul, still rich to live, what purpose? 
My girlfriend who either do not like children, or want to, without exception, boys, vanity aside, plenty of girls in trouble too, is afraid of girls selfish point of rivalry, snatching his glory, some fear girl hurt, because they are born weak and doomed. I remember growing up reading an essay called “flower girls”, has impressed nike dunk  the women of this paper also wrote: “looking forward to the boys from the heart. By no means underestimate girls. But unspeakable to love a girl . Love does not have the heart to let her come into the world. because I can not guarantee happiness of her life, not make her short life are the most beautiful love. In particular, do not worry about her figure looks beautiful and contempt, if she was ugly it happens to be extremely intelligent and kind, it determines how much her life will be painful. “ 
Yes ah, I had the same worries, because I deeply understand how sensitive and delicate girl with the mind, how difficult life. But precisely because of this, I want a girl with my own daughter, even though I can not guarantee that she can harvest the most beautiful love, smooth life, but I will do my best with all my understanding, love with care, give her a happy childhood and youth, I want to look her best bundle pigtail, buy the most beautiful little dress, make her do all the difficult life in the experience before, under my care to do one of the most be loved, happy carefree little princess! 
She was not too beautiful, as long as there was a lovely smile, kind and tolerant mind, know how to appreciate themselves and others; 
She need not be too smart, but also no need to always test first, as long as with cheerful optimism, pragmatic progressive good conduct; 
She need not be too obedient, you can occasionally guilty of some minor mistakes, as long as capable of distinguishing between right and wrong, know what you can not do anything. Who never young and frivolous, capricious act at this? Do not experience such unrestrained flying youth, how pale the life. 
I want to give her the most happy family, mom and dad never quarrel, and I give her most relaxed environment, not let her fear, trepidation. I want to do better, personally, had taught her to be a self-esteem, good tolerance, the courage to refuse the good girl, can distinguish between the temptation and dreams, open-minded bright, positive, marching sunshine of their lives on the road. 
I must have done her best audience, best friends, always respect, always trust, always accommodating, not beaten, not blame, do not force it took her a little bit of growth, through youth, rebellion, adolescent confusion ; when she as slowly as the flowers bloom, First love, I’ll take care of, look after and share the guardian of her initial feelings of pure ignorant girl, not rude intervention, not yelled at, just let her slowly to understand what stage of the enjoyment of lifeWhich section of landscape; when she suffered setbacks, frustrated, and I will be waiting at the side of a direction, so that she experienced ups and downs, learn strong; When she finally grew up, embark on life, find a home, I will buy her the most beautiful wedding, her own hands to protect her life, that person. Then I will cry Xilihuala it, but I will give her best wishes. 
Every time I see the street chasing laughter of children, I always eagerly looked and looked and fearful to leave, when colleagues brought their children to attend the banquet, I always want to hold another, like endless. But to see the little guy gang Renxiaoguida that the use of candy, toys temptation to Baoyi Bao, once succeeded, flew betray you, desperately struggling toward his mother, let go a little slower to cry Sixin crack lung, Later he was driven, and a return to the arms of her mother immediately quiet, and peace of mind to enjoy the spoils of war seized from me, looked at me indifferently, not too grateful, I’m always good and angry, funny, envy. 
Mother of a grown woman want to do, it should not be too difficult, but for me, has become an increasingly elusive dream almost impossible. The thought of this, the thought of this life, probably no one chasing I’m her mother, the pain would not stop the hearts. I always told myself to be strong, let it, and yet not willing to, want to be a mother too would like too, ah, do not know how to persuade myself not to wonder. Many female stars, the age of senior citizens, still diligently Praying for Children, more Anita Mui, even a life do not want to hysterectomy for treatment, refused to give up just because there may be opportunities for mothers. Many people do not understand, especially men, will not understand a woman feeling anxious mother. They’ll never understand, not to sympathize with, because they never have the chance to experience a life of detachment from his body in the process of birth, share of pain going through hell as a surprise to embrace the new life, share of being whole-hearted desire to follow love the feeling of trust. Children of the men, but a family line, is the life, family name, family continuity, while women are concerned, is the interpretation of the meaning of life and sublimation, as a child, you become a complete, powerful, invincible, never look to see to the world, through selfless giving and get all of the children is your best work in this life, the greatest achievement of pay and give the most regret. When faced with someone casually asked, “How old are your children?”, I have nothing to say; Every time I see the same age, and even much smaller than my female colleagues relish the exchange of parenting ideas with each other, children When all the cute funny, I saw it; when female students gathered to hear my classmates complain about the hardships raising children, how children are disobedient, willful naughty, my heartache, such as cutting, I do not know how to tell myself that All and all I care. I want to experience the hardships nine months of pregnancy, lactation feeding of sweet, experienced child Agencies toddler, babbling, looking at her a little bit in my growing up under the care and love, off the cocoon into a butterfly, and then contented old go. Mother never said a woman is incomplete woman, but I really do not know how to work hard for the full experience. 
Perhaps some things really insist not come, the more you want God to tease you more, I have bet on their own regardless, just for the chance for a mother, but in addition to black and blue, after all, a complete failure. The resentment fate? Or am I really doing something wrong? No, maybe this is my life. When I think of the little girl of my dreams, I told myself, I have to do to give her a good example of a strong and optimistic, do not complain or regret, it is easy for themselves. 
People live, there should be hope? However, very often want greater disappointment more broke our hearts. 
Love like water, I will soon be old, but I dream  nike sb of the little girl, and she eventually did not come.

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